I Lost Her

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Jennifer and I has been friends for more than a decade. We actually met at high school. She’s such a beauty; naturally endowed and has this burning passion for education.

When we were about graduating from college, I developed feelings for her. I didn’t tell her because I didn’t want to drag my friendship with her to the mud. Even though it may work out, but I was afraid of losing her so I kept my cool.

When we graduated, she was admitted to study medicine at the Johns Hopkins School of Medicine. I left for Imperial college of Engineering to obtain a degree in Mechanical engineering. Thoughts of her will always come to my mind each passing day. Even though we’re now in two different places but within me, we’re still together. I didn’t know if she felt same way for me; I didn’t find out.

Fast forward to 2006, she was rounding off her degree in Medicine. I have already graduated and I’m now on the verge of enrolling for a Postgraduate study in Marine Engineering.

When she called me that she’s almost through with the school of medicine, I was very happy and optimistic because I was making plans to settle with her.

I congratulated her and we felt very happy. It’s been tough all these years but we’ve been able to scale through.

She invited me to her induction but I was not able to make it to the induction because I had a seminar to present.  I later called her when I got home to know how it went. She was happy that I called and I congratulated her once again. We both happily went to bed.

The next day, I left for school because I was going to have a morning lecture scheduled to hold at 8am. When I got there, there was no sign of the lecturer and my colleagues weren’t there either. I made calls and they told me that It has been rescheduled. I actually got a message that morning but I forgot to open it. It was our communications representative that sent messages across to inform us of the new development. I felt bad because I didn’t just waste money, I wasted the time I should have used for something else. I waited behind so I can receive the lecture because there’s no point going back home and coming back to school again. The lecture ended and I compared my note with that of my colleagues and picked the points they have which I missed.

As I got home, I was about unlocking the door and my cell phone rang. It was Jennifer. She called to know how the day was. I was glad she called. I observed that recently, we now discuss more often but I didn’t know if it was a sign or not. I didn’t know if making my proposal is going to work; I was just afraid of what I cannot define.

Five months later, I rounded off my Master’s degree and Jennifer was hired as an Intern at John Hopkins School of Medicine because she performed very well in their final MBBS exam. She made a distinction.

I was happy for her. She hasn’t changed; that intelligence and smartness is still intact.

Some months later, I joined an engineering firm to practice for a while before looking for a higher firm.

Jennifer on the other hand has been promoted from an ordinary intern to a certified medical practitioner. She was given so many medical allowances.

Our friendship grew each passing day but I didn’t know how to make the move.

Three years later, I was now working in one of the leading car manufacturing industries and she’s also been promoted where she’s working.

One fateful morning, I was making plans to propose to her when I got a call. It was Jennifer. She called me and excitedly told me that she was getting married. Phew! I’ve been doomed.

The woman I love has been taken. It isn’t her fault. I decided not to make my intentions known to her until I’m ready. I’ve lost her. Life goes on.